Lovefeeling

Do you know that feeling? When you're totally madly in love, you can't think about anything else. He or she never leaves your thoughts. Sometimes it hurts, sometimes it's wonderful. 

                                                                                             

Love is something special. A connection between two persons. You get the feeling of butterflies in your belly. But sometimes this feeling is not returned, there is no mutual attraction. You tell someone you love him or her, but he or she just laugh at you and you're totally heartbroken. Know this feeling? I do. For me, it's the most horrible experience in life. You love someone with all your heart and he or she doesn't feel the same. Some people just move on, but there are people, including me, who go and ask themselves questions.

 'What's wrong with me?'

'Am I not good enough?'

'Is there someone else?'

Last year, I experienced something like that. It was horrible. Seven months I was just depressed, heartbroken. I was not good enough, I didn't deserve anything. A whole different person I became.  He bullied me, my whole year of school sucked. Because of him. He was a classmate of mine. I had to see him everyday, it hurted. But he didn't leave me alone. He said nasty things about me, that weren't even true. I talked a lot with him, I know for sure I loved him. We even kissed, but suddenly he had a girlfriend. The whole school thought I was a liar, because he said we didn't kiss. But we did. And I know that, that's enough. Maybe I stalked him a little bit, gossiping about him and I know it was wrong. So I stopped. He didn't. 

Anyway, after seven months, vacation began and there were new classes so I didn't speak to him anymore. I'm over him and a lot happier. 

Now you ask yourself, 'What does she want to reach with this story?' 
I want to deliver a message.

Life doesn't suck after one miserable rejection. You can be sad for a long time, yes, of course. But just know, it does get better. This isn't just a silly fairytale. It's the truth. Love hurts sometimes, yes. This doesn't mean that every single crush has to fail. Some people just come into your life to deliver a gift. A gift of hope, love, joy, sadness. Whatever. And then they go. But they all teach you a very important lesson. Without one of these gifts, you miss a lot of experience. Experience makes you stronger, the person who you really are. Without sadness, there wouldn't be joy. Without sadness you wouldn't appreciate and recognise joy. Stay positive, it's all going to be okay. One silly little guy isn't going to ruin your life. You'll get over him, eventually. 

Source: weheartit.com